I want to be an ordinary GIRL/(:

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

cant the class just think about each other? its always the few of us doing everything. we aint that free okays. we think of all the ideas, get so excited but when we see the class's attitude towards it, we're like, just forget it. its discouraging in case you didnt know. today 301 got upset toos. daniel was super angry. chill okays? at least there was still some spprit in mg lahs. ours is the totally dont even bother to raise objections to the idea. forget it. just hope we'll unite together before end of this year.

why do i have so many things to worry about? trying super hard to go back to my happy go lucky style. everyone expects that of me and i really want them to stop worrying ferr me. i really wants things to be just like before. i want to spend lots of time with grace. she's like the bestest friend ever. i really miss grace. ohyes. grace! i told my parents already. but they told me i'll just haveto bear with it.i'm like. HOW?! i decided to drop the topic about that which we talked about that day. its one less thing ferr me to think about. my life is too messed up already. with that it'll mess up more. andand. grace! the thingy on your blog is vietnamese! my roommate recognised it. hehs.

okays. so crappy news is that my parents somehow make me feel like they aint doing too well there. feel super lousy as their child. cant get superb results, neither am i helping them in any way. i'm super FAILURE. so it seems like i'm not such a good actress at all. even the most unexpected guy knew that i wasnt myself. how lousy can i get. got super tons of things to say lahs. but those close friends can see it immediately. so i say, when can i get back my smile?

CONGRATS TO DANIAL AND REIKO(:

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

so radical conference was just AMAZING!
i wont ever forget what happened.
did i mention that we wrote on the tape?x)
teresa and i did. hahahs.
i used my orange pen!
teresa used my black pen.(:
i must thank teresa ferr that hug.
did i mention that.
I LOVE TERESA(:

oops.
some animal that i cant draw gets jealous how?
DONT CARE!x)
anyways
i'll TRY to upload the pictures.
rarely do it.
lazy!
jed cant stand pictures.
ask him what to take and he says.
take.
A BREAK!
like
super LAME!
we were one hour late.x)
we missed the first day concert.
we didnt know at all!
hahahs.
some funny guy
the one sitting next to me ferr the first workshop
hahahs.
felt like telling him something.
he wont bite but he might scratch.
hee.
i wanted to take his bag.
hahahs.
scare him.x)
but i didnt know him that well.
so i cant lahs.
sadsad.
if it was joshua, i'm SURE to do it!
we were late ferr our first workshop toos!
we super horrible.x)

JESUS!

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Thursday, June 22, 2006

i'm super bored.
just like cheryl.x)
i'm kind of feeling super down.
since 14 june.
facing four walls everyday.
hearing only my own voice
hols have been super ultra boring!
too short.
then school term picks up.
thermodynamics):
dont want it.
i want to run!
but i need hieu to run with me.
he's coming back in two days time!(:
then i'll see him again.
our wonderful nights.
staring at the stars.
predicting whether it'll rain tmr.
hahahs.
then mr sukandar comes.
tells us to get back to our own room.
hahahs.
i miss phuong and deborah!
i realised how much hostel means to me now!
anna and christina(:
hockey sticks!
going crazy and get warned by ms norizan!
at midnight.x)
that was after exams. x)
running around disturbing others.
hee.
sighs.
its just LOVELY.

okays.
so change topic first.
geting myself to be happier.
cheryl and i bought this hp thingy!
mitchell's shoe shopping(:
plus the balls.
plus the waiting around.
plus the stealing of food(:
of the CHCKEN WRAP TIMES!
mitchell is just so fun.
yayy!
cheryl is jsut as spastic as ME!
JOSE is a little eccentric.
hee.
john still hyper on COKE!
RYAN still getting bullied by me.
hahahs.
hansiang not picking up his hp.
and then wasting his time because of me.
i feel super evil! but i still love school because of them
yayy!

andand.
JOEL WON THE BET!
dalston got whacked.
not literally.(:
i think the 2nd bet joel won toos.
or was it dalston that bet 2-1?
so confusing.
hahahs.
i havent won at all!):
but joel's in MALAYSIA!
ohman.

LOVES.

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Monday, June 19, 2006

I MISSED TALKING TO DAN JOEL AND DALSTON

it felt good to talk to them again okays.(:

i'm sure i'm going to win that bet!

they're a super sweet bunch.

yuppies.

they're treating their church leader!

father's day dinner!(:

dalston's got school.):

i'm still going to win that bet on the match!

dalston couldnt get up to watch it!

lazy bug.x)

then we crapped super a lot lahs.

SRINATH!

in case you didnt know.

you're what makes my life complete okays.

you're the bestest person of my life right now.

thankies ferr being there!

MY DEAREST BROTHER!<3

if i was to choose,

who's the one person to live

while the rest perishes,

i'll choose YOU.(:

coz life's nothing to me.

nothing without YOU.

loves.

anyone wants to tell me whyy i'm awake super early?x)

i want to know too.

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Friday, June 16, 2006

YAYYIE! hahahs. i shant say why i'm happy(: but at least he's not against me or something. i hope(: he remembers me! hee. hahahs. i'm super happy lahs.(:

okays. so back to todayy. went to school and we decided not to run! too lazy.x) i told ryan that it was too dark to run! hahahs. how funny. ohyes! rewind. i was chased by a DOG.=X it was super ultra mega scary lahs. i ran then stopped running. coz i remembered that the dog will jstu chase me even more. then i stopped and the dog stopped. so its alrights.(: i'm still TRAUMATISED! gosh. okays. forward. x) so i borrowed cheryl's tablet to watch one tree hill! srinath and ryan couldnt take me lahs. chasing me to go take my shower.x)so we left at about ten plus and got to orchard at 11.06(: srinath you cant lie to me about this! hee. grins. i went to the toilet and jose came out! okays. so its okays going out with them. i saw jo and deborah at topshop. i think i saw others toos. hahahs. iono.x) then i met with rachel nicole and tham. we went to zara and guess! and we saw maryann at zara. it was humourous.x) i shant say much. hehs. oh! i saw yunhui at taka. hahahs. smiles. ohman. green tea ice cream is super wierd lahs.=X

done! i really miss mg times. so fun to shop around with them again. smiles. MG friends are the best lahs.
BETTER TELL ME WHEN THAM DOES THAT DARE!(:

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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

ohman. i dont care lahs. since he is the cause of so many of my friendships, might as well dont want him lahs. you can have whoever you want okays. as long as our friendship is not destroyed. thats all i have to say. i think some people will agree lahs. saves me the torture as well. its not a very nice thing to go through.):

anyways. did i mention that i saw jenkin chermaine and renee at suntec? hahahs. and candice and shaun at west mall toos. then ryan saw flory.(:

CARS IS SWEET(:

ohyes. grace and i went to imm. so many bridal shops! hahahs. we went to have dinner and both tried to take chilli! so both of us were sniffing and turning red like some crazy girls learning how to eat chilli. so embarrassing. i had a drink! hee. grace had a RED forehead! hahahs. we shopped around! okays fine. i suppose to buy stuffies but in the end didnt buy. not even my batteries!): oh! i saw joshua chong. hahahs. and i think his girlfriend or colleague lahs. ohman. the gowns made grace and i go crazy. even the gown in one tree hill was nice! hee.

did i mention that one tree hill is a super nice show? especially since WHOSOEVER is in it.x) grace cant stand me saying that name out lahs. hahahs. ohwells.

my parents are leaving so i'll have more posts to keep my mind from wandering.

LOVES.

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

wells. i wished i could turn back time and not let any of this happen. maybe all would have turned out better if all this didnt happen. i'll still have the world's bestest person by my side. to crap around with me and to encourage me. thats true. thats what i want. thats what i need. but doesnt mean that when i've got one such person, that means thats sufficient. some things, not everyone can comprehend. now i've realised that there's always someone better out there. i keep getting better people around me. you can say God's been blessing me, but honestly. are you sure you understand what i'm going through? iono what on earth happened a year ago that destroyed everything between us. i didnt do it on purpose to ruin our friendship. why would i do that? i missed you so much when we didnt see each other so often. i dont get how things changed this much. all this over some guy? i mean. if you told me ealier, i wouldnt bother about him. i tried to change things when i found out but somehow you just saw me as someone ruining whatever that was left between both of you. that wasnt my intentions at all. i didnt go to nus high to make you feel worse about yourself. you tell everyone except ME what i did wrong. then they dont want to tell me and say i should jolly well know what i did wrong. i remember my promise to you. but you said exceptions could be made ferr that time round. is this the way we're going to go on with? i'd sacrifice anyone ferr my friends. whatever relationships i'll sacrifice. afterall it seems like we're two worlds apart so why not we just be sisters just like before. i HATE it when we fight other some third party. who cares. now you'll say i'm being insensative to his feelings but i really treasure friendship more than anything else okays. ):

ohman. i 've got more to this ferr today.

you. why must you tell him everything i say? you do know its personal. maybe you're my 'friend' ferr certain purposes. but i really missed last year when we just had times in the canteen together and it was just the few of us together during our short ten minutes break. i thought you wouldnt be like my past. but you WERE. now you're happy rights? so its over between me and him. you got him now lahs. fine. it doesnt matter. but now that that has happened. our friendship is over toos rights? you dont even care at all. so much ferr saying i'm your closest sister. taking away all that i treasured. but who are they to me as compared to you? its because you became so FAKE that i had to turn to them. so you got jealous and wanted to defeat me to everything. so i just took a step back and you thought it was because you're better. now you say you want things back between us. its hard. i've tried many times when you've said that but you keep shoving me away. its alright if you want to spoil everything between me and him. it doesnt matter to me now. it did at first but not anymore okays. i just really want you to stop using me. i may seem to have not noticed it. but honestly. i have. i really have. you know i have. stop decieving yourself. i wont backstab you. I PROMISE(: i'm glad that he's willing to change ferr you toos. maybe you should not treating him that way. he doesnt deserve it. he really trusts you. and i hope we can be like what were were last yr. four more yrs and more. i'll always be there whenever you need me okays.

its alright if no one knows what i'm saying.(:

i just need SOMEONE now.):

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